Well I’m back to teaching now. I can honestly say I think this is going to be a good year. I have good kids, I’m not taking classes anymore, I can just focus on my job now. I guess it’s a big early to tell though, about the kids I mean. They all start out pretty good but when they get comfortable they get bratty lol. But we shall see how that goes. Hopefully they stay good.

On the love front; well we broke up this weekend. I feel like I’m going in slow motion. The whole weekend feels like a complete blur, I don’t even remember how it happened. It’s been really weird though, our relationship. We haven’t seen each other in a month, then we did go out for a bit last week, saw Superbad (fucking hilarious). Then another day we went and got coffee. Things felt a bit awkward. But so much has been going on it’s ridiculous. I wish I felt like telling all right now. But basically we had been fighting, she is a lot less caring than she ever was. It’s like she can take me or leave me. Then she went out of town, and didn’t think to tell me until a day or two before she left; but claims that she told me. I remember everything, I wouldn’t forget her telling me she was gonna be going out of town. But anyways, I hadn’t seen her for a while after that, up until last week. And even though things were feeling kind of awkward between us, I thought we were maybe just at a bump in the road and it would take a bit to get over it.

Obviously I was wrong, seeing as how we broke up this weekend. We were fighting the entire weekend, all day Saturday, Sunday and now not talking at all today. There was a point where I thought we would be better off if we just parted ways; I thought I could handle that, but I really think now that I was wrong. I do love her, I’m still very much in love with her but I wish we could get back to where we used to be. I don’t foresee that happening, unfortunately. But hey maybe time will tell. I don’t know if I’m going to see her anymore as friends or anything. But if we do end up being at the same place at the same time, who knows, lightning could strike again. Maybe a break is just what we need. Then again…maybe this is really it. If so, I hope we’re both able to move on quickly; no suffering. Look at me, I’m being such a girl, ugh. It would be so much easier to just be a man, they don’t have feelings…at least 98% of them don’t.

Other than that…not much going on, I like my mom staying at my house, it’s been nice I’ve really missed having her around since I moved out. But I think she’ll be going back home soon :(.

I feel like time is going by too fast. I know I’m still young but I feel like my life is just passing me by. I don’t know what would make me happy anymore. I wish I knew.